Saturday, April 19
Went Cycling Again ! With Yuda , Joel & QiQi . To Jp Walk Walk Awhile Inside , To Bukit Timah Wanted To Play Pool But Never , To IMM Walk Walk And Back Home . Better Than Staying At Home I Guess . English Summary Yet To Be Done And Im Going Out Again Tml . Haha . Exams Are Like So Near Already Yet Im Nt Doing Much . To Hell With School ! Ite It Shall Be !
Part : Closure .
Tears that I had been fighting back , broke out this time from my resistance barrier and rolled down my cheeks as I saw the date today , 27 May. I was rooted to the ground , totally defeated , lying at the mercy of my ill-fated destiny . I clutched my head tightly as trains of disillusioned thoughts sanked into my mind . Why DIDN'T I LEFT Singapore to Japan earlier ? I shouldn't have cared about my examination to be with her , her few final days !
Decisions , most of the times , have cruel consequences regardless of which option I chose . I was at the verge of a sudden momentary mental breakdown , totally confused and helpless , like a baby in a crossfire , weeping silently to myself for the tears I owe her and for the lack of courage to express my feelings . She was waiting for me to pop the question ! And I never did ! At the very least, I could have let her know HOW MUCH she meant to me and how much I loved her. I then realised something was happening , I was crying .
As expected , my results turned out good . Since that day , I never spoke much because I was hurt , disappointed and regretted beyond words . I sat at the bus stop where I first saw her and the flashbacks came , in my mind , like a drama . I recalled that she still owes me a day out - although this can never happen and thinking of it made me sink deeper into this whirlpool of depression . Clutching tightly onto the heart origami that she made , I waited for the bus .
I boarded and saw my friend again , Jude . ' Hey Cloud ! Why Ain't your girlfriend with you ?' I smiled at him and pointed to my heart . ' Nah! She is with me , all the time , forever .
Alright , It's Come To An End . Hope You All Enjoyed The Story ! Who Knows , You Might Be In The Story Next Time In Your Life , But You Wouldn't Want This Ending , Im Sure . So Take Care People !