Sunday, April 27
Went For A Game Of Pool With Joel And Yuda On Friday Night . Dinner 1st Before Game , Bak Kut Teh , Yummy . Only 1 Exiciting Thing Happened . As We Were About To Go Home , While Walking Along The Roadside , Some Vehical Drove Past Us And Some Idiot Shouted " EH , FK YOU LA ! " And Drove Off As Fast As He Could , Ball-Less . Haahaha . SO Dumb . Then While Waiting For Bus We Thought Of Many Situations That Could Happen .Went Out Today With Iqmal , Hanafi , Yao Ming , Yuda , Gattison , Joel , Fd . Go Causeway Point Waste Time Lol . I Myself Dono Why They Go There , Some Say Buy My Present . Then I Thought , Wtf ? Buy My Present Ask Me Go Along ? Then Ask Me What I Wan ? LoL . 1st Time This Kind Of Thing Happen . Anyway , Nth Bought But Joel And Fd Bought Something Naughty ! Haha . Shall Not Say It Out To Spoil Their Fun .
Rather Plain Post This Time , Better Than Nt Updating Yea ? Sry Readers For A Lousy Post !
Tuesday, April 22
Happy Birthday To FD In Collaboration Of Earth Day ! Your Present On The Way La , I Requested The Click Five Over To Sing You Happy Birthday , Wait For It !Went To Catch This Movie Just Now With Joel , Yuda & Of Coz FD Himself .
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Unexpectantly , A Chio Bu In The Movie ! Liu YiFei !
Not Exactly The Best Of Pictures Of Her , Couldn't Find 1 .
She Acts As The Little Sparrow In The Show . She's Hot !
Overall Movie Rating ? 4/5
No Summary ! Go Watch It .
I've Yet To Watch The Three Kingdoms . Maybe Gonna Miss It . Now Their Talking Abt IronMan (Fe + Man ---> FeMan) On 30th April , So Yea Most Probably Catching It .
Tml's Wed And It's Fried Chicken Day ! I've Gt Nth To Blog About So I'm Adding Crap In . Eng Compre Was Done In A Craptacular Manner ! Gonna Fail It , Great ! Eng Lessons So Far Had Been Featuring Angelina Jolie ! She's Hot Too , Tomb Raider Heh .
Right , Thats About All I Guess ? Enough Crap ? Want More ?
Sunday, April 20
Here's A Photo Which I Forgot To Upload In Yesterday's Post .It Reads " We Accept OLD & NEW Series Of Notes "
After That , Looking At The Diagram , It Totally Defeats The Purpose Of The Sentence .
So To Me It Says Rather " We Only Accept New Notes . " Crap .
Moving On To Today ! Headed Down To Orchard Road To Give FREE HUGS ! :)
Hahahahahahha .
Actually Nah , It Was JiaXian Doing It . He Was There Doing It And We , Gattison , Yuda , Yao Ming , Xuan Le & Yuqi Went Down To Show Some Love Homie ! Haha . So I Took That Sign And Started Walking Around . Then 1 Tourist Took A Photo Of Me Heh , Make Me Famous Please !
So After That We Walked Around Taka , Nth Much . Headed Down To Old Airport Road Again !
This Time I Tried The Wanton Mee . Nth Good , Nth Bad . Then Ordered A Herbal Half-Chicken , Delicious . Then Adrina Came Over Again & We Went To Kallang Leisure Park AGAIN ! Did Nth Much There Also And Homed .
Torture Starts Tml ! Siansation People !
Saturday, April 19
Went Cycling Again ! With Yuda , Joel & QiQi . To Jp Walk Walk Awhile Inside , To Bukit Timah Wanted To Play Pool But Never , To IMM Walk Walk And Back Home . Better Than Staying At Home I Guess . English Summary Yet To Be Done And Im Going Out Again Tml . Haha . Exams Are Like So Near Already Yet Im Nt Doing Much . To Hell With School ! Ite It Shall Be !
Part : Closure .
Tears that I had been fighting back , broke out this time from my resistance barrier and rolled down my cheeks as I saw the date today , 27 May. I was rooted to the ground , totally defeated , lying at the mercy of my ill-fated destiny . I clutched my head tightly as trains of disillusioned thoughts sanked into my mind . Why DIDN'T I LEFT Singapore to Japan earlier ? I shouldn't have cared about my examination to be with her , her few final days !
Decisions , most of the times , have cruel consequences regardless of which option I chose . I was at the verge of a sudden momentary mental breakdown , totally confused and helpless , like a baby in a crossfire , weeping silently to myself for the tears I owe her and for the lack of courage to express my feelings . She was waiting for me to pop the question ! And I never did ! At the very least, I could have let her know HOW MUCH she meant to me and how much I loved her. I then realised something was happening , I was crying .
As expected , my results turned out good . Since that day , I never spoke much because I was hurt , disappointed and regretted beyond words . I sat at the bus stop where I first saw her and the flashbacks came , in my mind , like a drama . I recalled that she still owes me a day out - although this can never happen and thinking of it made me sink deeper into this whirlpool of depression . Clutching tightly onto the heart origami that she made , I waited for the bus .
I boarded and saw my friend again , Jude . ' Hey Cloud ! Why Ain't your girlfriend with you ?' I smiled at him and pointed to my heart . ' Nah! She is with me , all the time , forever .
Alright , It's Come To An End . Hope You All Enjoyed The Story ! Who Knows , You Might Be In The Story Next Time In Your Life , But You Wouldn't Want This Ending , Im Sure . So Take Care People !
Aye . Had A Nice Night Out . Part 21 22 23 24 25 Coming Up !
Xuan Le , Yuqi , Gattison , Leslie & Me Went To Old Airport Road For Dinner . I Was Looking Forward To A Spread But Turned Out Not Much . After Makan , Gat's Fren , Adrina Met Up With Us And Went To Kallang Leisure Park Walk Walk . It's New And Nth Much Yet . Then Home Le . Sadly No Pic For The Day . I've Turned Rusty In DJ Max !!! ARGH ! Time To Play Again Heh .
Right , Part 21 22 23 24 25
‘ Boy ar, come, drink this .
'
It was close to my June examinations and my mum knocked and came into my room , bringing me the usual examination brain tonic -Chicken Essence . I gulped down the entire bottle and sat by my study table in my room . Working through previous years papers had driven me to the pinnacle of madness . I looked out the window and thought of Clare , again .
It has been a few months since I last saw or heard from her . After my stupid answer that day , I regretted totally over everything . I had my last glance when I spoke my last words to her. As I left that day , I controlled myself emotionally and held back my tears . For a guy's image, I can't allow such feelings to overpower me.
I went online that day to see if she was ,but no she wasn't . I knew it was already past midnight, but I finally succumbed to my inner self and went off to bed .
I don't know why she never contacted me since then , but I knew she had her reasons . Maybe she lost my number ? Maybe she’s busy adapting to her new life ? Or maybe she had already forgotten about me ? No ! That can't be ! How can those precious moments and time that took place be so easily forgotten ? The day I knew her , our chats ,the movie , dinner , straw playing , the beach , the unexpected rain ,the cuddling and every other tiny little details . Was All These meant only to be a dream ?
Tomorrow is the start of my exams . I rubbed my eyes a little and stretched , telling myself not to ponder over past issues as it may affect my exam performance . I went back to my books and paper and continued working on it .
' Boy ar ! Your Call ! '
My call ? At such an hour of the night ?
' Hello ? '
There was no response , but somehow I had the feeling that it washer .
' Clare ?? Is that you ? '
I was praying and gripping the phone cord tightly , hoping for a miracle to happen .
' How ? how did you know it was me ? '
' I just felt that it was you ! Hey ! I haven’t heard from you for SO LONG ! '
I emphasized on the words 'So long ' as if I had never heard anything from her for a few decades . The first thing I did was to tell her to hang on for a moment and screamed at the top of my voice , literally . My happiness could not be contained inside me and I needed to release it . Then I " scolded " her, in a gentle tone , for not contacting me and making me worry for her .
' Sorry . I can't use the phone here for very long . '
Actually , I don't mind the duration of her calls - I just wanted to hear her voice so badly .
' Cloud , Missed me ? '
' For making me worried and missing you so badly , you’ll owe me another day out ! '
I just wanted to be with her again .
We spoke on the phone , talking about everything we could and the pressing examination stress seemed to vanished . I was hoping in my heart that time will freeze so that we could chat till the end of time .
' Cloud , remember that day when I asked you if you would visit me in Japan and you said you would ? '
' Yea ! You want me to go over ? Sure ! Tell me your address , I’ll go over right after my examination next sat . '
' Next sat ? examination ?. When is that ? '
' Maybe 28 May or slightly later . Yeah , tell me your address ? '
I jolted down her contacts in Japan and kissed it .
' Cloud , I got to go already . I can't use the phone anymore . Before I put down the phone , is there anything you want to tell me ? '
' Take good care of yourself alright ? I can't wait to see you again ! '
' You hang up first Cloud , I don't want you to hear me hang up on you . '
With a heavy heart , our conversation ended as I put the phone down . In preparation for the up coming trip to Japan , I sped up my revision , determined to do well so that I could psycho my mum topay for my trip . I want to thank God for giving me this chance!!HOORAY!
*Days passed*
At last ! I am close to finishing my examinations - the last paper was coming soon . I was home , like any other day , doing my revision . My mum said that after I finish this examination , she would pay for my tickets , provided I give her my word that my results would be good when it is out . I CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE! I want to see her so badly and life had been so good to me . Even though little set backs came along the way , I love the surprises Cupid had in stored for me .
From dawn to dusk , I had been studying non-stop , although my mind wandered away to the thought of seeing her again . For the sake of going over , everything is worth it !
Then , in the amidst of studying , my mum called for me and I guess it must be regarding the trip . Heh , Yeah ! I will get to see her soon !
>>---------------------------
' Boy ar , a letter for you . '
Huh ? A letter for me ? I had never received a letter addressed to me before . I examined the envelope and it wrote ' To Cloud ' on the front . Curiously , I tore opened and the letter fell out .
Dear Cloud ,
Before I begin , I apologise for not telling you everything about myself . In this world , if there is one person I wouldn't want to see crying - it would be you .
I wrote this letter on the night when we parted .I feared that I may not have the chance to see you again this lifetime . I knew you were putting up a brave front because as a woman , it’s ok to cry and I knew you would be there to console me , but someone has to be the stronger one to console and reassure right ?
The reason why I have to go back to Japan is because I am suffering from blood cancer that may claim my life very soon if it is not treated . My parents wants me to go back to take a major operation there because if this operation were to fail , I would disappear from the surface of this world and they want to be with me during this period , that's why I asked you if you would come to visit me if I asked you to .
The success rate of this operation is only 30% and anything could happen . So I want to tell you that I appreciate your company , your advices , everything you did or said . I giggled to myself every night after our chats online and I began to ask myself if I fell in love with you . I guess I did , although you never expressed yourself to me . Perhaps it is just one sided , but no wrong liking you right ?
You told me you would rather wait for the special one , and I told you I would also wait for mine . During that time when I was cuddling in your arms , I knew that you were the one . I hoped that the cab could drive slower because I may not get the chance to cuddle with you again . You may have found a girlfriend by then , or I am already in heaven watching over you .
My operation begins on 24th May and I will call you maybe a week or so before to fulfill the promise you made about you coming over to visit me in Japan . By then you would know the truth and I can see you again for the last time , at least .
But then again , if you received this letter through mail sent by my guardian , it means that I am already gone , leaving my physical body , leaving my suffering and of course , leaving this world . But do not despair , as I will always be around you , shielding you like what you did , in vain , to protect me from the rain . You said you were not romantic at all , but to me , you are the best a guy could ever be .
I am feeling a little tired just writing this letter , but I am determined to finish what I have to say . If there is one final question I want you to ask me , it would be you asking me whether if I like good-looking guys . No , I don't like them because I like guys like YOU - unique and extraordinary , just like Rosemary in the movie we watched together . This distinct character can only be found in you and I want you to keep it that way for I like the way you are , not the way you look .
I love you , Cloud , very much . Clare .
Xuan Le , Yuqi , Gattison , Leslie & Me Went To Old Airport Road For Dinner . I Was Looking Forward To A Spread But Turned Out Not Much . After Makan , Gat's Fren , Adrina Met Up With Us And Went To Kallang Leisure Park Walk Walk . It's New And Nth Much Yet . Then Home Le . Sadly No Pic For The Day . I've Turned Rusty In DJ Max !!! ARGH ! Time To Play Again Heh .
Right , Part 21 22 23 24 25
‘ Boy ar, come, drink this .
'
It was close to my June examinations and my mum knocked and came into my room , bringing me the usual examination brain tonic -Chicken Essence . I gulped down the entire bottle and sat by my study table in my room . Working through previous years papers had driven me to the pinnacle of madness . I looked out the window and thought of Clare , again .
It has been a few months since I last saw or heard from her . After my stupid answer that day , I regretted totally over everything . I had my last glance when I spoke my last words to her. As I left that day , I controlled myself emotionally and held back my tears . For a guy's image, I can't allow such feelings to overpower me.
I went online that day to see if she was ,but no she wasn't . I knew it was already past midnight, but I finally succumbed to my inner self and went off to bed .
I don't know why she never contacted me since then , but I knew she had her reasons . Maybe she lost my number ? Maybe she’s busy adapting to her new life ? Or maybe she had already forgotten about me ? No ! That can't be ! How can those precious moments and time that took place be so easily forgotten ? The day I knew her , our chats ,the movie , dinner , straw playing , the beach , the unexpected rain ,the cuddling and every other tiny little details . Was All These meant only to be a dream ?
Tomorrow is the start of my exams . I rubbed my eyes a little and stretched , telling myself not to ponder over past issues as it may affect my exam performance . I went back to my books and paper and continued working on it .
' Boy ar ! Your Call ! '
My call ? At such an hour of the night ?
' Hello ? '
There was no response , but somehow I had the feeling that it washer .
' Clare ?? Is that you ? '
I was praying and gripping the phone cord tightly , hoping for a miracle to happen .
' How ? how did you know it was me ? '
' I just felt that it was you ! Hey ! I haven’t heard from you for SO LONG ! '
I emphasized on the words 'So long ' as if I had never heard anything from her for a few decades . The first thing I did was to tell her to hang on for a moment and screamed at the top of my voice , literally . My happiness could not be contained inside me and I needed to release it . Then I " scolded " her, in a gentle tone , for not contacting me and making me worry for her .
' Sorry . I can't use the phone here for very long . '
Actually , I don't mind the duration of her calls - I just wanted to hear her voice so badly .
' Cloud , Missed me ? '
' For making me worried and missing you so badly , you’ll owe me another day out ! '
I just wanted to be with her again .
We spoke on the phone , talking about everything we could and the pressing examination stress seemed to vanished . I was hoping in my heart that time will freeze so that we could chat till the end of time .
' Cloud , remember that day when I asked you if you would visit me in Japan and you said you would ? '
' Yea ! You want me to go over ? Sure ! Tell me your address , I’ll go over right after my examination next sat . '
' Next sat ? examination ?. When is that ? '
' Maybe 28 May or slightly later . Yeah , tell me your address ? '
I jolted down her contacts in Japan and kissed it .
' Cloud , I got to go already . I can't use the phone anymore . Before I put down the phone , is there anything you want to tell me ? '
' Take good care of yourself alright ? I can't wait to see you again ! '
' You hang up first Cloud , I don't want you to hear me hang up on you . '
With a heavy heart , our conversation ended as I put the phone down . In preparation for the up coming trip to Japan , I sped up my revision , determined to do well so that I could psycho my mum topay for my trip . I want to thank God for giving me this chance!!HOORAY!
*Days passed*
At last ! I am close to finishing my examinations - the last paper was coming soon . I was home , like any other day , doing my revision . My mum said that after I finish this examination , she would pay for my tickets , provided I give her my word that my results would be good when it is out . I CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE! I want to see her so badly and life had been so good to me . Even though little set backs came along the way , I love the surprises Cupid had in stored for me .
From dawn to dusk , I had been studying non-stop , although my mind wandered away to the thought of seeing her again . For the sake of going over , everything is worth it !
Then , in the amidst of studying , my mum called for me and I guess it must be regarding the trip . Heh , Yeah ! I will get to see her soon !
>>---------------------------
' Boy ar , a letter for you . '
Huh ? A letter for me ? I had never received a letter addressed to me before . I examined the envelope and it wrote ' To Cloud ' on the front . Curiously , I tore opened and the letter fell out .
Dear Cloud ,
Before I begin , I apologise for not telling you everything about myself . In this world , if there is one person I wouldn't want to see crying - it would be you .
I wrote this letter on the night when we parted .I feared that I may not have the chance to see you again this lifetime . I knew you were putting up a brave front because as a woman , it’s ok to cry and I knew you would be there to console me , but someone has to be the stronger one to console and reassure right ?
The reason why I have to go back to Japan is because I am suffering from blood cancer that may claim my life very soon if it is not treated . My parents wants me to go back to take a major operation there because if this operation were to fail , I would disappear from the surface of this world and they want to be with me during this period , that's why I asked you if you would come to visit me if I asked you to .
The success rate of this operation is only 30% and anything could happen . So I want to tell you that I appreciate your company , your advices , everything you did or said . I giggled to myself every night after our chats online and I began to ask myself if I fell in love with you . I guess I did , although you never expressed yourself to me . Perhaps it is just one sided , but no wrong liking you right ?
You told me you would rather wait for the special one , and I told you I would also wait for mine . During that time when I was cuddling in your arms , I knew that you were the one . I hoped that the cab could drive slower because I may not get the chance to cuddle with you again . You may have found a girlfriend by then , or I am already in heaven watching over you .
My operation begins on 24th May and I will call you maybe a week or so before to fulfill the promise you made about you coming over to visit me in Japan . By then you would know the truth and I can see you again for the last time , at least .
But then again , if you received this letter through mail sent by my guardian , it means that I am already gone , leaving my physical body , leaving my suffering and of course , leaving this world . But do not despair , as I will always be around you , shielding you like what you did , in vain , to protect me from the rain . You said you were not romantic at all , but to me , you are the best a guy could ever be .
I am feeling a little tired just writing this letter , but I am determined to finish what I have to say . If there is one final question I want you to ask me , it would be you asking me whether if I like good-looking guys . No , I don't like them because I like guys like YOU - unique and extraordinary , just like Rosemary in the movie we watched together . This distinct character can only be found in you and I want you to keep it that way for I like the way you are , not the way you look .
I love you , Cloud , very much . Clare .
Monday, April 14
Right Right , Many Days Never Update Liao . And I Promised Part 16 This Post , Argh !
Hmm , 11 April , Celebrated Leslie's Birthday With Lousy & Crappy Programme . Makan At JE , Wanted Watch Movie But Don't Have Anything To Watch & Go Some Where Sit Down Talk -_- .
Might As Well Dun Celebrate Haha .
My Birthday Oso Dun Celebrate , I No Programme =] .
Yesterday Nth To Do Then Yuda Msn Me , " Never Go Out Ar ? " . Then We Go Cycling Lor , Since He Said He Wanted Go Clementi Find Stuff For D&T . Then Jio Amrit And Mafan De Yuqi XD . Had To Cycle To Her Hse Area There Coz She Say Her Area No Place To Pump Her Bike Tire De . So We Go Over Help Her Find Lor .
I Go Walk Around The Area Awhile & Found Already , Lazy Yuqi Never Explore Her Own District De Den Anyhow Say No Where To Pump ! So As I Was Saying , Cycled From My Hse To Yuqi's Area , To Clementi , To West Coast Then Back To JE .
Yuda And Amrit Go Home Le Then I Pei Yuqi Cycle Go Jp Coz She Also Need Go Buy Thing . I Wait Outside Jp Damn Scary La , All The Bangalahs Walk Past And Stare At Me , SO GAY !
Then Cycle Home Le . Damn Tired .
" Eh , That Auntie Sitting There Just Now 'Diao' Us Leh , Wack Her Leh "
Lol , Jk .
And Here's Part 16 , 17 , 18 , 19 & 20 ! Happy Or Not , I Promised 16 Only I Do Till 20 . Happy Reading !
Thinking about her sudden urge to meet me made me paranoid , motives ? , that's what TV dramas would always show . Maybe she needed to borrow a large sum of money and then disappear into thin air . Ahhhh ! the effects of TOO much TV . As I was busy throwing away those impossible scenarios to cease my tension , she stood in front of me . As I looked up , I noticed her face was getting fairer and whiter to the extend of being pale , but nevertheless , her sparkling eyes never loses its glow . Must be the effects of those skin whitening Japanese beauty products .
' Waited long ? '
' Oh No , Only about 5 minutes . '
My first lie I made to her . But it was for a good cause . We went into Mac and sat near the glass windows where we could look out towards the roadside .
I Asked , ' Wanna Eat Anything ? I'll Go Get It . '
' I'll Have The Same Thing As You . '
I went off to buy with no difficulties but somehow , I had , when i was returning with the try filled with yummy burgers and fries . I noticed her looking at me with a mesmerizing effect that I nearly lost my balance and topple over the tray .
' Cloud , why are you so good to me ? '
Good ? What do you mean good ? You mean you want me to trick you into bed and after that meet about for sessions like this ? Thinking back , only bastards would do that .
' What do you mean good ? '
' Before those day when you wanted to know me , I was actually getting a little irritated when you stalked me . '
' Oh really ? I must have seemed like a pervert or something to you right? '
She giggled out of a sudden and I wondered what she meant .
' But then again , up till now , I just realized that you are different from other guys that wanted to know me . '
What ? There are other idiots doing the same thing too ? Oh well , I am NOT surprised , considering her lovable nature and attractiveness .
' You are my best friend and i appreciate it . We must be fated to know each other right ? '
Fate again . Why must women always bring up the topic of fate everytime when it comes to relation of any kind ? I nodded my head a little . She seemed a little moody today and I thought that if there was anything I could give in to her , I should give in . I tried to cheer her up a little as the topic she started with was on the emotional side . I cracked some jokes and she giggled a little as we continued with our meals .
Sometimes I feel that she is the only person in the world that appreciates what I am doing - be it stupid , silly , cute , dumb or whatever ! It is not much , but she always responded . We finished our meal and were playing with our straws like kids . As we fiddled around with the straws , I looked into her eyes and her eyes seemed to tell me that she may have gone through a lot during these period . I don't know what problems there may be , but all my mind was telling me to make her happy - simple and sincered .
' Can we go somewhere where I could see the sea ? '
' Sure . '
We took a taxi down to Pasir Ris . We Reached after a rather quiet drive . We got out and walked towards the shores where the stone pavements were and sat down . It was rather high tide and the waves were washing up the shore roughly . The sky was densely clouded and the breeze felt like a fan infront of us , but just nice enough for comfort .
Side by side , we watched the waves of continual sweeping up the shores . Suddenly she positioned and leaned herself on me with her head facing up , looking at the nightly sky. I told myself never would I forget such a day . The first intimate body contact I ever had with a girl , I was speechless . We spoke of nothing , just revelling nature's beauty . The breeze was just perfect and the weather too . I was enjoying every moment , I felt as though i was in heaven .
Then The Silence Broke , In A Nice Way With Her Asking Me .
' The sky is beautiful right ? ' I looked at the sky and to me, it appeared as if our picture was up there . ' Yea , I've never seen the sky this way before . '
Then she sat up and looked into my eyes , as if a soldier going for war , my gaze never left hers - I decided not to avoid it . We studied each other's gaze for a moment and after what seemed like eternity , I saw those watery eyes again .
' Cloud , would you remember me ? ' Actually I was wondering why she sobbed , but it seemed as though she wants to bring up something to tell me and I suspect it was nothing good . I nodded my head to answer her question and she turned away to the rough sea .
' Why ? I will never forget you . Is there something wrong ? ' She kept quiet , her eyes rolled up and down from the sea to the sky before looking down.
' I .. I .. ha .. ve to go ba .. ck to Ja .. pan . ' Like prickling a bubble, an internal implosion occurred within me in an instant . Don't tell me that all the moments I've been enjoying is coming to an end just like this ? If this ending was a dream , I pray that It really was , but it was not a dream at all .
' I .. understand , your parents are over there and they're worried for you right ? '
Even though I was fighting inside, I had to put on a brave front . Well , she isn't my girlfriend or anything like that , I can't stop her from leaving . Girls of her age needs their parents to be with them more than friends i thought .
' Will you come and visit me if I ask you to ? '
' Of course !!! I will !!! We can still contact each other through MSN right ?! '
I was hoping for a small miracle , its nothing much , but at least I could still talk to her online.
' I don't think I have a internet connection over at japan yet . '
The atmosphere started to get intense and to make matters worst , I felt a droplets of water falling onto my skin .
' Then , its ok . I'll phone you whenever I can and I think we better leave now , it's going to rain .'
We both got up and walked hastily towards the road trying to catch a cab , but halfway through , the merciless weather started pouring heavily . Even though I just had a shock from what she had just told me , at that present moment , in my mind , all I thought of was to shield her from the chilling rain as I didn't want her to fall sick . My hands formed a tiny , little barrier and covered her head . To me , it was damn dumb and I didn't understand why was I doing such a thing - it won't block 90% of the rain and save her from being drenched .
Then , I saw a taxi coming this way and I flagged it .
' You are so silly Cloud . ' The next thing I knew , we were in the cab drenched . I told the taxi driver to lower down the air-con power , not the temperature , to the lowest and put my arms around her shoulder , rubbing her arms to keep her warm .
Gradually , for some reason , she was in my embrace and I was stroking her soaked hair . Her eyes were kept closed and my fingers travelled to her cheeks . She opened her eyes , like a baby waking up in the morning . My index finger teased her dimples a little as she felt ticklish and ruffled her head in between my arms and chest . We remained in that embraced position throughout the whole journey .
All good things must come to an end - the cab reached her place and luckily , there was shelter to her house . I told the uncle to wait for a moment and got out of the cab with her .
' When are you leaving then ? '
' Tomorrow. '
Tomorrow ? Did I just hear wrongly ? What's the rush ? Sometimes , reality is extremely cruel - heaven makes sport of men .
' I planned to tell you earlier , but I just can't bear to . '
She was right . If she told me earlier , my feelings would be just like a dying patient with the last stage of cancer - waiting for the actual day . It's terrible !
' Would you see me off ? ' In my heart , there was this robust urge of seeing her every second , but if I were to see her off , the scene would be unimaginable . My mind and soul won't be able to endure the parting scene .
' I think , we should just keep this the last meeting . ' I actually managed to smile and kept this mask of mine, this indestructible brave front . I COULD'NT BELIEVE I ANSWERED THAT WAY .
Thursday, April 10
Hey Peeps ! Quite Afew Days Never Blog Liao .8th April , Happy Birthday Yuda !
Celebrated By Going To The Movies & Makan . Due To Time Issues , The Choices Of Movies Sucked -_- . What Was Available Left Was Only "Untraceable" & "Rogue Crocodile" . Actually I Suggested The Three Kingdoms 1 But Couldn't Make It . So Watched The Crocodile Show . Expectantly , It Was Ok . Nth Very Nice , Nth Very Bad . Just A Stright Line Movie . Watch Finish Then Go Bukit Batok Somewhere Eat Zhi Char ( Those Order Dishes 1 ) & Satay . Well , The Birthday Boy Shudden Pay Everything Right ? So We All Chipped In $5 For Everything . Makan Finish Go Home Lo .
It's 10th April Today . Happy Birthday Debra !
Seems Like April's A Month With Loads Of Babies ! Well , I Dun Expect Anything On My Birthday =] .
Tml Need To Go Support VolleyBall Team In The Finals -_- . SIANZ .
Story Part 16 Shall Be Up Next Post !
Sunday, April 6
Had Speech Day Yesterday . Speech Day Is The Most Stupidest School Event I Know . It's Not Like We Can Do Anything About It Anyway . Free Breakfast By Mrs Tan Giving Out Mc's Burgers , Don't Know What It's Called . I Wonder , Did We Thank Her ?
We Had To Rehearse Once Before The Actual Thing When We Already Practiced Days Before . The Curtain People Sucks Too , They Don't Know How To Close The Freaking Curtain ! After That We Just Hanged Around In Band Room .
As It Was The Last Day For Graduates In Band , Pei Ling Requested / Commanded / Asked / Whatever I Don't Know - The Band To Take A Photo . The Usual Band That Doesn't Move Immediately , Got Screamed At By Pei Ling . Her Rage Just Turned A Group Of People Off From Taking The Photo From What I Witnessed .
Anyway , I'm Not 1 Of Those Who Go Round Asking To Take Photo With So I Just Sat Around And Waited For Them To Come To Me ! =D . Not Much Either , Ungrateful Assholes ! =X . Jk .
The Zhang Bu Da (Can't Grow Up) , Angie .
The Bengap , Huda . FYI , I Was Eating A Burger In My Mouth ! Hence The Face !
Heh , Puny Zhu ! Sad Her Eyes Were Closed .
Pathetic Small Section .
Haha Ong .
My Fav Pic Of The Day ! LOL .
Sec 5 Batch =] .
We Had To Rehearse Once Before The Actual Thing When We Already Practiced Days Before . The Curtain People Sucks Too , They Don't Know How To Close The Freaking Curtain ! After That We Just Hanged Around In Band Room .
As It Was The Last Day For Graduates In Band , Pei Ling Requested / Commanded / Asked / Whatever I Don't Know - The Band To Take A Photo . The Usual Band That Doesn't Move Immediately , Got Screamed At By Pei Ling . Her Rage Just Turned A Group Of People Off From Taking The Photo From What I Witnessed .
Anyway , I'm Not 1 Of Those Who Go Round Asking To Take Photo With So I Just Sat Around And Waited For Them To Come To Me ! =D . Not Much Either , Ungrateful Assholes ! =X . Jk .
The Zhang Bu Da (Can't Grow Up) , Angie .
The Bengap , Huda . FYI , I Was Eating A Burger In My Mouth ! Hence The Face !
Heh , Puny Zhu ! Sad Her Eyes Were Closed .
Pathetic Small Section .
Haha Ong .
My Fav Pic Of The Day ! LOL .
Sec 5 Batch =] .
Yet Another 1 Of Those Kind Of Pics I Like .
Sweet Aint We ? XD
Baka !
Well , After That I Headed Home . Then Around 6 I Was Called Out To Feast With Leslie , Gattison , Yuqi & Zhu . Headed Over To JE . Then To Science Centre Only To Find Out It Was Full . So We Had To Go To The Next Outlet Near Yuqi's House .
The Buffet Costs 27 Something . We Ate To Our Fill . Leslie Became The Recycle Bin And We Dump Anything We Din't Like There , Thx Ar . Yuqi Didn't Seem To Eat Alot , In fact , She Was The 1 Who Ate The Least .
(Just Look At Their Faces Ogling Over The Food . Specially Featuring Les's Face !)
After That , With Our Bloated Stomachs , We Went To Yuhua's Mac And Talked About Some Rather Interesting Subs . Then Zhu Gtg Home Le .
We Planned To Ton Actually But Then Headed To Gat's Hse . On The Way Gt This 2 Motorcycle On The Road Damn Irritating . Seems To Be One Of Those You Know , Gangsta ! They Kept Going Past Us & Gat Claimed That They Were Watching Us . So We Go Gat's Hse Lo .
Stayed Till 2.30 And Yuqi Wanted To Go Home Already Coz Scared Her Sister Scold
-.- , Baka .
Then Cabbed Home Lor . I Slept At 4 am And Woke Up At 4 pm Now . What Am I Gonna Do ? It's Only A Few Hours To Night Fall And I Won't Be Able To Slp . Kinda Bored Right Now . Well , I Enjoyed The Day After The Buffet Onwards =] .
Sweet Aint We ? XD
Baka !
Well , After That I Headed Home . Then Around 6 I Was Called Out To Feast With Leslie , Gattison , Yuqi & Zhu . Headed Over To JE . Then To Science Centre Only To Find Out It Was Full . So We Had To Go To The Next Outlet Near Yuqi's House .
The Buffet Costs 27 Something . We Ate To Our Fill . Leslie Became The Recycle Bin And We Dump Anything We Din't Like There , Thx Ar . Yuqi Didn't Seem To Eat Alot , In fact , She Was The 1 Who Ate The Least .
(Just Look At Their Faces Ogling Over The Food . Specially Featuring Les's Face !)
After That , With Our Bloated Stomachs , We Went To Yuhua's Mac And Talked About Some Rather Interesting Subs . Then Zhu Gtg Home Le .
We Planned To Ton Actually But Then Headed To Gat's Hse . On The Way Gt This 2 Motorcycle On The Road Damn Irritating . Seems To Be One Of Those You Know , Gangsta ! They Kept Going Past Us & Gat Claimed That They Were Watching Us . So We Go Gat's Hse Lo .
Stayed Till 2.30 And Yuqi Wanted To Go Home Already Coz Scared Her Sister Scold
-.- , Baka .
Then Cabbed Home Lor . I Slept At 4 am And Woke Up At 4 pm Now . What Am I Gonna Do ? It's Only A Few Hours To Night Fall And I Won't Be Able To Slp . Kinda Bored Right Now . Well , I Enjoyed The Day After The Buffet Onwards =] .
Thursday, April 3
Part 13 , 14 , 15Suddenly, she took the bus tickets I was holding .
'Look away first ! ' I did as I was told and after five minutes she hold my wrist and put her fist onto my hands . Am I in heaven ?
'I have nothing to give you , so I made these two hearts myself . One for you , one for me . ' I looked at her origami made from the bus tickets and wondered whether I should do something similar . Well , I Just couldn't do anything at that moment but to thank her .
Shortly after , her stop arrived and she had to alight . We got down and I insisted on sending her all the way to her block .
' It's ok . It's not good if I am seen by my neighbours with a guy so late at night you know . ' I nodded and relented . Well , every date has to part eventually right ? I watched her figure fade away as she made her way to the estate until I cant even get a glimpse of her . I am so over the moon today .
For the next few months , we chatted everyday and each time I felt that I am slipping into this pit of angelic darkness called love . She told me she couldn't go out very often as her guardian is very strict - At last she is talking more about herself . Her parents are overseas working , leaving her all alone , which contribute reasons for her character . I know she longs for my company like I long for hers. We are like one inseparable pair of best friends . Whatever problems she has , she consults me and I will be there to give my best advice . Maybe this is what true love is , someone to be there regardless of whether you two are together , someone to guide , shield and depend on .
Jerry, the women's men , said that I am wasting too much time on a single girl . I should just pop the question and leave the thinking to her , after all life is too short to spend on one person . But the urge to reveal my feelings hasn't reached to a stage of desperation yet . Maybe next time I would , but when is the right time ?
' Cloud , I have something to ask you . ' Oh no , not again ?
' What do you think of me ? ' Oh ^!&# , peer evaluating time ! Even though I speak easily to myself , when it comes to expressing to HER , I'm bound to score an F9 for it .
' Cute ? And you are a very good friend of mine .'
' That's all ? '
What do you mean that's all ? Oh dear , I have to say something that she wants to hear or forever I will be condemn in her eyes . Noooooooo... I decided to avoid the question using my avoiding tactics .
' There are a lot of things in my heart that I feel about you , but in this short span of time , I can't express it out . But regardless of what is it , I want to let you know that I treasure you a lot . ' Phew, lucky thing I managed to come up with this marvellous sentence . It seems that after knowing her , I am beginning to learn the trades of using words .
' Oh , Ic =] . '
I didn't know how to reply her smile and decide to leave it until she reply me with something else . Five minutes went by and I started pondering whether I should reply anything .
' Cloud , can we meet for dinner tomorrow ? '
Another date ! Yeah !!!! I screamed literally at my computer screen .
' Sure ! What about your guardian ? She allows you to go out ? '
' Yea , she allows me to go out tomorrow . '
' Ok , we'll meet at Mac at Parklane ok ? '
' Ok I have to go offline now . Oh and remember not to be so early ok ? I'll feel bad if you have to wait for me . '
I smiled at her consideration for me . Before I could reply with anything , she already went offline . Guess that I'll have to wait till tomorrow to see her again .
I arrived early as usual , this time about 15 minutes earlier , waiting for her outside Macdonald patiently.