Monday, April 14
Right Right , Many Days Never Update Liao . And I Promised Part 16 This Post , Argh !
Hmm , 11 April , Celebrated Leslie's Birthday With Lousy & Crappy Programme . Makan At JE , Wanted Watch Movie But Don't Have Anything To Watch & Go Some Where Sit Down Talk -_- .
Might As Well Dun Celebrate Haha .
My Birthday Oso Dun Celebrate , I No Programme =] .
Yesterday Nth To Do Then Yuda Msn Me , " Never Go Out Ar ? " . Then We Go Cycling Lor , Since He Said He Wanted Go Clementi Find Stuff For D&T . Then Jio Amrit And Mafan De Yuqi XD . Had To Cycle To Her Hse Area There Coz She Say Her Area No Place To Pump Her Bike Tire De . So We Go Over Help Her Find Lor .
I Go Walk Around The Area Awhile & Found Already , Lazy Yuqi Never Explore Her Own District De Den Anyhow Say No Where To Pump ! So As I Was Saying , Cycled From My Hse To Yuqi's Area , To Clementi , To West Coast Then Back To JE .
Yuda And Amrit Go Home Le Then I Pei Yuqi Cycle Go Jp Coz She Also Need Go Buy Thing . I Wait Outside Jp Damn Scary La , All The Bangalahs Walk Past And Stare At Me , SO GAY !
Then Cycle Home Le . Damn Tired .
" Eh , That Auntie Sitting There Just Now 'Diao' Us Leh , Wack Her Leh "
Lol , Jk .
And Here's Part 16 , 17 , 18 , 19 & 20 ! Happy Or Not , I Promised 16 Only I Do Till 20 . Happy Reading !
Thinking about her sudden urge to meet me made me paranoid , motives ? , that's what TV dramas would always show . Maybe she needed to borrow a large sum of money and then disappear into thin air . Ahhhh ! the effects of TOO much TV . As I was busy throwing away those impossible scenarios to cease my tension , she stood in front of me . As I looked up , I noticed her face was getting fairer and whiter to the extend of being pale , but nevertheless , her sparkling eyes never loses its glow . Must be the effects of those skin whitening Japanese beauty products .
' Waited long ? '
' Oh No , Only about 5 minutes . '
My first lie I made to her . But it was for a good cause . We went into Mac and sat near the glass windows where we could look out towards the roadside .
I Asked , ' Wanna Eat Anything ? I'll Go Get It . '
' I'll Have The Same Thing As You . '
I went off to buy with no difficulties but somehow , I had , when i was returning with the try filled with yummy burgers and fries . I noticed her looking at me with a mesmerizing effect that I nearly lost my balance and topple over the tray .
' Cloud , why are you so good to me ? '
Good ? What do you mean good ? You mean you want me to trick you into bed and after that meet about for sessions like this ? Thinking back , only bastards would do that .
' What do you mean good ? '
' Before those day when you wanted to know me , I was actually getting a little irritated when you stalked me . '
' Oh really ? I must have seemed like a pervert or something to you right? '
She giggled out of a sudden and I wondered what she meant .
' But then again , up till now , I just realized that you are different from other guys that wanted to know me . '
What ? There are other idiots doing the same thing too ? Oh well , I am NOT surprised , considering her lovable nature and attractiveness .
' You are my best friend and i appreciate it . We must be fated to know each other right ? '
Fate again . Why must women always bring up the topic of fate everytime when it comes to relation of any kind ? I nodded my head a little . She seemed a little moody today and I thought that if there was anything I could give in to her , I should give in . I tried to cheer her up a little as the topic she started with was on the emotional side . I cracked some jokes and she giggled a little as we continued with our meals .
Sometimes I feel that she is the only person in the world that appreciates what I am doing - be it stupid , silly , cute , dumb or whatever ! It is not much , but she always responded . We finished our meal and were playing with our straws like kids . As we fiddled around with the straws , I looked into her eyes and her eyes seemed to tell me that she may have gone through a lot during these period . I don't know what problems there may be , but all my mind was telling me to make her happy - simple and sincered .
' Can we go somewhere where I could see the sea ? '
' Sure . '
We took a taxi down to Pasir Ris . We Reached after a rather quiet drive . We got out and walked towards the shores where the stone pavements were and sat down . It was rather high tide and the waves were washing up the shore roughly . The sky was densely clouded and the breeze felt like a fan infront of us , but just nice enough for comfort .
Side by side , we watched the waves of continual sweeping up the shores . Suddenly she positioned and leaned herself on me with her head facing up , looking at the nightly sky. I told myself never would I forget such a day . The first intimate body contact I ever had with a girl , I was speechless . We spoke of nothing , just revelling nature's beauty . The breeze was just perfect and the weather too . I was enjoying every moment , I felt as though i was in heaven .
Then The Silence Broke , In A Nice Way With Her Asking Me .
' The sky is beautiful right ? ' I looked at the sky and to me, it appeared as if our picture was up there . ' Yea , I've never seen the sky this way before . '
Then she sat up and looked into my eyes , as if a soldier going for war , my gaze never left hers - I decided not to avoid it . We studied each other's gaze for a moment and after what seemed like eternity , I saw those watery eyes again .
' Cloud , would you remember me ? ' Actually I was wondering why she sobbed , but it seemed as though she wants to bring up something to tell me and I suspect it was nothing good . I nodded my head to answer her question and she turned away to the rough sea .
' Why ? I will never forget you . Is there something wrong ? ' She kept quiet , her eyes rolled up and down from the sea to the sky before looking down.
' I .. I .. ha .. ve to go ba .. ck to Ja .. pan . ' Like prickling a bubble, an internal implosion occurred within me in an instant . Don't tell me that all the moments I've been enjoying is coming to an end just like this ? If this ending was a dream , I pray that It really was , but it was not a dream at all .
' I .. understand , your parents are over there and they're worried for you right ? '
Even though I was fighting inside, I had to put on a brave front . Well , she isn't my girlfriend or anything like that , I can't stop her from leaving . Girls of her age needs their parents to be with them more than friends i thought .
' Will you come and visit me if I ask you to ? '
' Of course !!! I will !!! We can still contact each other through MSN right ?! '
I was hoping for a small miracle , its nothing much , but at least I could still talk to her online.
' I don't think I have a internet connection over at japan yet . '
The atmosphere started to get intense and to make matters worst , I felt a droplets of water falling onto my skin .
' Then , its ok . I'll phone you whenever I can and I think we better leave now , it's going to rain .'
We both got up and walked hastily towards the road trying to catch a cab , but halfway through , the merciless weather started pouring heavily . Even though I just had a shock from what she had just told me , at that present moment , in my mind , all I thought of was to shield her from the chilling rain as I didn't want her to fall sick . My hands formed a tiny , little barrier and covered her head . To me , it was damn dumb and I didn't understand why was I doing such a thing - it won't block 90% of the rain and save her from being drenched .
Then , I saw a taxi coming this way and I flagged it .
' You are so silly Cloud . ' The next thing I knew , we were in the cab drenched . I told the taxi driver to lower down the air-con power , not the temperature , to the lowest and put my arms around her shoulder , rubbing her arms to keep her warm .
Gradually , for some reason , she was in my embrace and I was stroking her soaked hair . Her eyes were kept closed and my fingers travelled to her cheeks . She opened her eyes , like a baby waking up in the morning . My index finger teased her dimples a little as she felt ticklish and ruffled her head in between my arms and chest . We remained in that embraced position throughout the whole journey .
All good things must come to an end - the cab reached her place and luckily , there was shelter to her house . I told the uncle to wait for a moment and got out of the cab with her .
' When are you leaving then ? '
' Tomorrow. '
Tomorrow ? Did I just hear wrongly ? What's the rush ? Sometimes , reality is extremely cruel - heaven makes sport of men .
' I planned to tell you earlier , but I just can't bear to . '
She was right . If she told me earlier , my feelings would be just like a dying patient with the last stage of cancer - waiting for the actual day . It's terrible !
' Would you see me off ? ' In my heart , there was this robust urge of seeing her every second , but if I were to see her off , the scene would be unimaginable . My mind and soul won't be able to endure the parting scene .
' I think , we should just keep this the last meeting . ' I actually managed to smile and kept this mask of mine, this indestructible brave front . I COULD'NT BELIEVE I ANSWERED THAT WAY .