Sunday, February 24
Tml Science Common Test , Dont Think I'll Pass At All . Part 7 & 8 !
Clare : ' Really?. '
Cloud : ' All woman loves romance . It is like spices in cooking . Without it , any relationship will be bland . '
Clare : ' What about you Cloud? '
Me? How come the topic is about me now ? I always avoid questions whenever it comes to me in revealing my inner self. It is like exposing yourself to danger through speaking .
Cloud : ' Me ? What about me ? '
Clare : ' What if something like that happens to you? '
Cloud : ' Er , it won't lar . I don't even have a gf . '
Clare : ' Why ? find one ? =P '
Cloud : ' . '
Clare: ' y ? something wrong ? '
Ok baby, this would be the catalysis to explode my innermost views again .
Cloud : ' I don't want to get a gf for the SAKE of getting one . Its meaningless like that don't you think ? Relationships nowadays are going nowhere because people just want to be in 1 . They are afraid to be alone - they WANT someone to walk with them . Be it emotionally , sexually or physically . I don't mind being alone , infact I like it ! Untill maybe when the special one comes along . I will try my best to be with her and do stuff together '
There was an unaccustomed silence after I type that paragraph . My fingers speed through the keyboard and finally stop at the last word. Oh @$$@! Have I just ruined my good impression ? I discern its time to celebrate with Jerry about my first failure .
Clare : ' You are right Cloud. '
Hooray!! I could see my reflection with that happy face on the computer screen , signalling that it ok to what I've said .
Clare : ' I want to stay single , until the special one comes along too . '
Oh wait , how could cute girls like her possibly stay single ? Guys will try all sorts of ways to get her and she would finally succumb to one. She is too cute to stay single .
Cloud : ' You so cute and pretty , alot boys sure want to tackle you 1 lor . '
Clare : ' I'm nt cute and pretty ! '
When you praise a girl pretty , they would tell you they look ugly . When you say that they look like shit , she retaliate and bites back , saying you look worst . Such mentality is of a woman .
We continued to chat for the next two hours . Somehow , during this period of getting to know her , I had never asked about the background of her family , but we talked abt everything else. I love to chat with her as she is way so different from the other girls i know - she is VERY naïve and this creates an impulse for me to protect her , to guide her along .
She showed me the real innocence of a young lady, untainted and pure . I love the way she is , naturally cute and these are the reasons that stop me from jioing her - I can't take advantage of her innocence right ?
Saturday, February 23
Long Time Since Ive Had A Picture . Happy Ain't You Gerald .
Delicious . Went To Have Steamboat With Xuan Le , Yuqi , Yuda & Gattison At Clementi . No Comments La , Nt Very Gd Nt Bad , 26 Bucks . Aft That Go Gattison's House Mahjong . Play Awhile Xuan Le Gtg Le , Then Yuqi , Gat , His Bro & Me Continue . Finish 1 Round (Wind) Then Sian Liao , Yuqi So Slow =XXXXX . Then Go Home Lo , Take Cab , $6.60 Gone Just Like That , Zzz . Anyway , Here's A Special Double Episode Part 5 & 6 !
Maybe people involved will find it longer than it seemed to be . I am a counsellor in school and people approach me for all kind of interpersonal relation problem . Maybe that's why I have another point of view . But when it comes to myself , I am such a dickhead.
Cloud : 'If they were meant to be together , well , they will be together right ? Sometimes not being together is a good thing . Couples not suited for each other being force to be together is a painful thing . '
Clare : ' Fate . ? '
Fate to me is like a legend ; everyone talks about it , rant about it, thank God about it , but when it comes to relationships , I never had a girlfriend , so I know nuts about it .
Cloud : ' Err , you could say that ?
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Clare : ' Then are we fated to know each other Cloud . ? '
I always hated it whenever girls corner me with questions that neither YES nor NO is the right answer . Just when I am stuck with her question , my mum , with her pissed off face , came knocking at my door , demanded that I finish the food left for me .
Cloud : ' Hey, I have go off for now to eat supper . answer you another time . '
Clare : ' . '
Cloud : ' Don't like that la , I treat you movie next time . '
Clare : ' You say wan ar ! I see you tomorrow ok ? '
Well , it seemed that the treating trick always works . Hey, doesn't that means that I can make use of this excuse to catch a movie with her ? I am such a genius .
Cloud & Clare : ' Ok ! bye bye ! '
The next thing I see is the ' DISCONNECT ' word on my computer. Grinning from ear to ear, I skipped my way to the kitchen .
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Clare : ' Cloud ! Finally online ! '
Clare : ' Cloud, my good friend tried to patch back with her bf today , but he ignored her . '
Cloud : 'Well , guys these days are not looking for serious relationships . People have to get to know and go through more relationships before they'll realise that who is the right one for them . '
Clare : ' She cried you know , so poor thing . Then that guy said that he likes another girl already . '
A Chinese proverb came into my mind - Tian ya he chu wu fang cao . Why cry over a relationship that was never meant to be yours in the first place ? Humans , even though are emotional creatures , after a period of time , everything will just be a memory of what had taken place .
Clare : ' & Yah I told her to move on with her life , but she loved him so much and she couldn't believe that he like someone else . If I'm her , I will also dunno what to do . '
Cloud : ' Don't know what to do ? Make yourself happy instead of lingering in the sorrowful event ! Sometimes I really wonder if woman are that dumb ? Or is it love that is making woman a vulnerable creature ? And what makes you think THAT it is love ? Woman , in their first love , love their lovers , in others , they loved love . '
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Wednesday, February 20
Tml Ss Test And Im Rushing This Post . I Have A Complain To Whine About Too . SG BUS . Nope , Im Talking Abt Bus And Not (Chio) Bu(s) . 1 Sentence . BUILD BIGGER BUSES AND STOP SHOUTING TO ASK US MOVE IN U @#$%^&*()_ , NO SPACE MEANS NO SPACE HOW MUCH U TINK YR PATHETIC SMALL BUS CAN HOLD , WAN EARN MORE MONEY BUILD BIGGER BUS LA . And Here's Part 4 !I ate before i came back , I guess she's gonna skin me alive. 'Just came back ar , you ask me leave food for you then still don't want go eat ?' ' Aiya , let me rest awhile 1st , later i go eat .
' Just Came Back ? I waited for you to come online. '
Waited for me? Sometimes girls can be such a cute little thing . Words like these seemed like healing wards for the day's fatigue . Jerry once told me that guys must be sweet talkers and romantic , well I'm not those kind . But when he stressed his point , I tried learning to be one .
'Why leh ? Miss me ar ? HAHAHAHA! ' I added the laughter just to cover my embarrassment , but hey , that's a good attempt. She replied ' -_- . '
'Cloud , I am moody today. '
'Really ? What happen ? '
'My good friend just broke up with her boyfriend today. ' Somehow girls are very affected over things happening to their friends in matters of love . Guys would normally tell them to move on with their life and stuff , whereas they would share their pain and sorrow or cry with them. Maybe that's why girls always tell one another about their personal problem .
'Well , it's getting common isn't it ? Relationships are breaking up every now and then . '
'I've seen them together for 3 months plus . so long . ' Three months and you called that long ? It's not even longer than a semester .
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Monday, February 18
Alright , My Lips Is Almost Healed Just That Its Still Rather Dry . Nth Much Happening In Sch Anyway . Here's Part 3 !' Hi, I was...was wondering if I...I...could get to know you and be your friend ? ' All the energy in me had expanded in this stuttering sentence I blurted . My face began to blush red with shyness as I waited for her respond . She smiled faintly and gosh , it swept me off my feet . Five minutes went by and everything happened as smoothly as any successful mission .
We exchanged numbers and I learned that she is not exactly local ; she is a half Japanese who came to Singapore to study . Her name is Clare Although She's Jap . She has a unblemished , fair and silky-like skin . Then she said she had to leave and with a dumb smile reciprocating her sweet ones , we parted .
I looked back at her for another time before running and yelling at the top of my voice that I made it . Did I mention knocking onto the lamppost and actually apologized to it ? It was two months since I knew her and we talked online often . Our relationship grew to be good friends now . Jerry told me to go after her , but my heart doesn't want to sacrifice this stable friendship for now . Maybe because I never had a girlfriend before and always have this phobia of relationship not lasting .
I came home quite late 1 day after spending the day out with my friends and logged onto Msn . Unexpectedly , She's online too . Before I could catch my breathe for walking back home , I heard the msn message tone & wondered who would still be online at this hour , 12,34 am .
'Cloud, so late still never sleep ar ? ' I heard my mum's voice lurking in the background , commanding me to finish the leftover food in the kitchen . If my mum knew that ......
Saturday, February 16
To Hell With Science In O Lvl ! So Dead , I Know Nuts Of Chem . Art , Trying La =X . Oh Well , Heres Part 2 ! Once Again I Say , Names , events , happenings Do NOT resemble anyone and i'm just too lazy to think and names and used such names in the story . Jerry's house and I would only see her at the bus stop . So everything needs to be done today!She is sitting in front of me and my mind is virtually blank , thinking of a good way to start a decent conversation with her. Then, the bus appeared into sight and my set my pulse racing - Time is of the essence ! The bus slowed down gradually & eventually stopped , allowing us to board .
I chose a seat near the back and sat down, watching her walk pass me , taking a seat behind . A wave of uneasiness washed over me as I could even sense her gaze on my back. There was an internal war waging inside me as I am fighting against the will to try & walk over to introduce myself and to remain rational. By then , we had already reached our destination .
She walked at quite a pace after alighting , reckoning that I am stalking her behind . Every second was slipping pass me and beads of sweat broke out at strategic part of my forehead . I can't let this final chance go by!
She went through the gate of the estate by now and my mind is in a state of desperation. Watching her gradually moving towards her block is unimaginable . Come on Cloud , you can do it , OR are you gonna lose this chance forever!? A surge of false strength or could have been adrenaline filled my veins as I ran towards her. When I came to an arm's distance from her, I gave her a light tap on her shoulder. She turned around, as if expecting all the obvious that would happen and gave me a curious look.
Thursday, February 14
Wahaha ! Finally Done Something About The Diffculty In Reading My Posts . Common Tests Are Around The Corner And Im Not Studying , Way To Go ! Anyway , Heres A Story ! But , Unlike The Last Time I Posted Abt The Story , This Story Will Surely Go On =) . Do Take Note That Names Mentioned & Places Are Merely A Coincidence . This Story's Character's Role Doesnt Resemble Anyone I Know , Just A Story . Might Contain Grammar / Vocabulary / Tenses Mistakes Too . Heres Part 1 !The first time for a guy to approach a woman during his life, be it a senseless dare or pure admiration, somehow or another, an ounce of energy will gradually flow in you until it accumulates past a climax , then a sudden urge of doing silly things to know her happens.
Before you know it, everything happens in a flash, and when you think back, you wondered how on earth did you manage to do or say something as retard. I am in similar hypothetical situation. I've been observing her for two days and for some diabolical reasons, something struck me , whispering to me in telepathy mode that I have to know her. Must have been one of Cupid's bow shot went haywire and got into me - Can't take my eyes off her.
She is petite , with long flawless hair. Her features were well defined - especially her eyes that captured my soul when i first saw her . She is not those drop-dead gorgeous model's style, but when she smiles and her two dimples creases into her cheeks deeply, nothing on earth is sweeter than her. Her charisma and the air that saturates around her is angelic and when I am near her, to close for comfort (it's simply stressing), she smelled like a walking conditioner.
I have to know her, if I want this piece of dream to turn into reality. If it were something of my forte, it would have been as simple as snapping my fingers, but I have never approached a girl before. What do you expect from someone who studied in a guys school since Primary One and not even a single sister at home? Female of similar age don't exist in my environment since I graduated from kindergarten, which was like years ago?
Today is the last day of school , which means starting from tomorrow, two months of holidays ! Then , my chances of seeing her will be zero because she doesn't stay around my area ; she stays near my good friend, Jerry, at the whatever condominium . Fate has enabled us to meet because two days back, because I have been going to ......
Wednesday, February 13
Yea Thats Right , To All You Couples .
Oh And I Would'nt Do This If I Have A Gf / Date =) .
Sunday, February 10
3 Days Liao My Mouth Still Doesnt Seem To Be Better . Im Still Bleeding ! I Bleed It Out Digging Deeper Just To Throw It Away ! Hahaha . Think I Lost Quite An Amount Of Blood . Sweeeeet . Tml Sure Alot Ppl Ask , " Eh ! Why Your Mouth Like That Ar ? " " What Happen ? "
So My Answer Now Is " You Want ? " Hahaha . Bound To Get Many Stares In Public Also La . Especially On Bus I Think . Oh Well , Still Have To Go School =/ .
Troubled Feeling Aft My Incident . Bad Cny .
Friday, February 8
Way To Go Gerald ! Happy New Year Ar .
Tuesday, February 5
2nd Feb , Went To Pasir Ris Park To Do Cip . Did'nt Know That Taking Bus Was Faster Than Train ! Whole Journey On Bus Do Nth But Psp =D . Playing 300 Then Got Stucked Coz The Boss Like Bugged Like That -_- . Cannot Hit Him + He Doesnt Atk Lol , So I Off It . Arrived At Our Destination . Alight From Then Bus , Walk In Then Makan LOL ! Reach There Only Makan . Haven Work Makan Already . Then FD , Joel & Me Take 2nd Round Haha . Merely Rice , 2 nuggets & 1 Egg .
Jiak Pa ( Aft Eating ) Liao , Zuo Kang Liao (Time To Work) . We 3 Shared 1 Trash Bag But Joel Just Took Another 1 Incase . Instead Of Using It , Joel Filled It With Air And Trapped It , Take Come Hit -_- . Walk Along The Shore Nth Much To Pick 1 . Simply Glass , Glass & More Glass .
Pick Untill Sian La , Nth Interesting Also . We Pick Less Than Even 1/4 Of The Trash Bag . Then All Started To Pick Rocks And Make Them Hop On Water . Then Finish Liao Lor , Free Cip Hours Just Like That .
Then Time For Pictures With Joeseph's Quality Cam !
Finally I Consider Myself Ok Looking In Pics .
Aft Cip , Went JE With FD , Yuda , Joeseph & Gattison . Makan KFC Then Go Ice Skating See Competition . Aft That , Went Home Then Abt 5 + Like That Went Out Meet Zhu , Debra , Xinyi & Yuqi Go Makan Crystal Jade At Suntec . I Tried Dono What 5 Spices Beef Ramen , Super Plain Lol =X . Makan Finish Go Walk Walk Then Go Home Lo .
Zhu Bought Me A Cute Zhu Haha .
Friday, February 1
Wanted To Post This Earlier But Didnt Have The Time . Generation Gap , Big Problem ? Well , You Decide .
I Was On The Bus The Other Day , Right At The Next Stop , This Old Couple Boarded The Bus . Well , The Bus Was Packed With People La . I Can't Really Confirm That There Was Or Wasnt Space At The Rear Of The Bus For People To Move In . So This AUNTIE Came Nudging Me While Whinning About Space To Her Husband . A Part Of What She Said That I Remembered , " People Now Ar , Very Funny , As If At The Rear Got Ghost Like That . "
Well , To Me , It Pissed Me Off . These Old People , I Really Cant Describe Them . I Mean Its Correct That The People Aren't Moving In La , But You Complain & Whine About It Beside Me , Nth Would Change Right ! Then Nvm Lor , Still Hold That Freaking Bag And Keep Nudging Me , Still Keep Trying To Get A Glance At The Rear Of The Bus Somemore , Look Then Look Back Then Look Again , Damn Irritating La . I Thought To Myself At That Moment And Said In My Heart , " Auntie , You So Gan Chiong For Wad , You Already On The Bus Then Stop Complaining La , Nt As If They Move In Already You Get A Seat What . Then You Keep Looking To The Rear Might As Well You Squeeze Through The Whole Bus La . @#$%^&*()_#@$%^&*()_ " . Of Coz I Would'nt Be Saying It In English La . Damn Irritated La . Zzz .